Wednesday, August 10, 2011

A piece of Chapter 1...the beginning

Goa, India

On any given Sunday, Inspector Alexander K.M. Gomes usually woke up to church bells ringing and a mild sense of panic that he would be late again for Sunday mass, an event he attended more out of family pressure than any deep religious convictions. He lived in a nice building in Miramar, one he'd picked because of its location near to Panjim,  just across from the beach and far from any church. Unfortunately,  times had changed and now a chapel with pealing bells had sprung up where once small and inconspicuous shrine to Our Lady of Fatima had stood. The chapel stood right on the other side of the wall of his compound, almost directly in front of his apartment. On festival days, he had a clear view of worshipers climbing the many stairs to pay their respects to Mother Mary, orange marigold and white jasmine garlands in their hands. Luckily, his access and view of the beach remained and so he kept the apartment, just grinding his teeth at the truly bad singing that seemed to be a common characteristic of all the chapel-goers.

But this Sunday, it was the loud and somewhat obnoxious ringing of his cell phone, a
synthesizer-rich disco tune his grand niece had picked the other day, that woke him. He was sweating mildly and his head felt foggy and heavy. As he reached for his phone, more to shut it off than answer the damned thing, he was already making up his mind to skip mass and never drink scotch again. As the day's events would show, only the former would occur.

The call number listed belonged to his friend Rabbi Moshe Gershwitz, who as far as
Inspector Gomes could recall at that moment, should have been happily spending his Sunday afternoon seated in his orange and grapefruit tree filled garden in Tel Aviv, playing with his grandchildren. As Alex started to flip open the phone and take the call, hearing that empty sound that comes with connecting international calls, he felt a sudden overwhelming sense of despondency. Later, he would wonder why he didn't feel foreboding or even danger, and instead just a great engulfing sadness.

"Hello, hello, Alexi, is that you" Rabbi Gershwitz shouted through the distance of phone lines. The harried tone of his normally calm friend immediately pulled Inspector Gomes out of sleep.

"Alexi, Alexi" Rabbi Gershwitz continued, "sorry to disturb you, I know you must be on your way out of the door, but something has come up, something bad".

Inspector Gomes found that opening his mouth was a bit difficult but he managed to utter his first words of the day, insisting he wasn't being disturbed, not on his way to church and how could he help.

"A girl, the daughter of close friends of mine here in Tel Aviv, she's only 24 - just left the army and is in Goa, was in Goa, for the past six months. She hasn't called home or emailed for about a week, and I just heard, through our common sources there that she may have just been found. Dead, washed up on one of your beaches. Alexi, Alexi, please help".

Inspector Gomes, known by many names but hardly ever actually called Alexander, felt that heavy  despondency again. In his minds eye he could already see a dark, churning hole, and him slipping gradually into it. But, years ago, when such a hole had opened up once before, it had been Rabbi Gershwitz who stepped up and helped him out of it. From that time a strong friendship had been born and nurtured between these two men of such different backgrounds and ages. And given this friendship, Inspector Gomes,  K.M or Gomes-Sir to his colleagues and deputies, felt that whatever it was that was going to be asked of him next, because an ask was just around the corner, he would have to agree to it.

"Moshe, it's all ok- tell me what you know, and how I can help. I'm here my friend, all will be fine" replied Inspector Gomes using the best calming tones he could muster that morning.

Rabbi Gershwitz, taking a deep breath, filled his friend in on what he had heard and what he needed from Alex, ending by saying "please Alexi, go see the local police, see what you can do. Her family trusts me to help and I trust you. Please see what has happened, is there is any foul play and if so what is going on in Goa. Please, we just want some news".


As he hung up the phone after reassuring the good Rabbi, Inspector Gomes smiled slightly, some things never change he thought. Years ago, in the early days of a new and slightly awkward relationship between his country India and Rabbi Gershwitz's Israel,  based on work he'd done with mafia dons in Bombay and Hyderabad, Alex had  been sent as a liaison to work with Israeli intelligence on tracking movement of assumed terrorists in and out of India. His work had taken him to Tel Aviv, during one of its hottest summers. There, during a burning July month, he'd met a then spryer, Moshe Gershwitzw his "host father". As it turned out Rabbi Gershwitz would prove to be more than just a man with a roof to offer, and this understanding and experienced, laid-to-rest Mossad agent would prove invaluable to Inspector Gomes. 

These days Alex looked back at that summer with mild humor at his youth-fuelled ambitions and overall eagerness. He had loved Israel, fallen in love with its rawness, the mix of openness and aggression of its people, and the duality of hope and despair that seemed to stalk the streets of Tel Aviv. Even now he could conjure up the electricity of life that seemed to fly through the warm summer nights, that brought people out of their apartment blocks, into cafes and discos, tempting fate while living life to its fullest. He had also found love that summer, though brief, it had been passionate and ended in tragedy, Israeli style, he thought wryly.

He had learned a lot those few months, about himself and about counter-terrorism. He couldn't say if he loved all his Mossad colleagues but he'd come to respect them. The "common source" Moshe Gershwitz had mentioned on the phone was in reference to these very colleagues, some of whom were now based in cells throughout India and Asia.  And now this common source had called Moshe early-Tel Aviv time to tell him, informally of  course, that a young girl, possibly an Israeli, had been found washed up on some beach in Goa - naked and very dead.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

New York, New York

I had a great flight across the country and sat next to a very interesting lady who was on her way to NY for a final interview as a marketing director for some Italian design house. We commiserated with each other on how  life's ambitions sometimes force you out of LA, a city -especially if you live on the West side - as close to an urban paradise as possible . She may end up moving to the East Coast and splitting her life between NY and Rome. Her life, like mine, was changing atom by atom as we flew across America.

I woke up this morning feeling very anxious and realized that for the first time in my life, I've embarked on work that is only (primarily) pleasing to myself. Unlike my consulting, in which I had external agents to please so as to get paid etc., here the only boss (to be disappointed or made happy by my performance), is myself. This responsibility or awareness of this responsibility is making me quake with a mix of nervousness and excitement. I feel strangely "grown-up".

I'm going to take today to draw up a schedule, write out my goals a bit more clearly,  re-read what has already been written, and clean up the outline. I have to be honest about who I am to decide if I'm a morning, afternoon or evening writer. I'd really like to be one of those early morning birds, already typing away as the streets come alive. But, I suspect my best hours are nearer lunch. I have to keep reminding myself to "be true to thyself" - authenticity will carry this project forward!



Monday, July 18, 2011

Starting the (writing) journey



I've been trying to write this book for just over a year now and I realized to really get it going I had to take some major steps, including changing my external environment and generally getting out of my daily rut.

And so, on a whim (and with some indirect pressure from my dear husband Arv), I sent out an email to friends asking if anyone had a place for me to stay this summer - a room of one's own - in which I could write and isolate myself a bit. And, less than 24 hours later I had such a great response from so many loving friends.

The result is two lovely apartments in two diverse cities, places to get my creative juices flowing and some serious writing happening! I start my journey in New York, cat sitting in Brooklyn, for some dear family friends. Then I move on to central Madrid to house sit for some good friends.

THANK YOU S, C, J, M and T for providing me with spaces to write, delve deeper into myself, hear my inner voice more clearly and concentrate on the book. Without your generosity and kindness I wouldn't even be writing this blog! Thank you, Merci, Gracias, Grazie!

I feel immeasurably lucky to have such an opportunity. If it wasn't for my Delta tickets (thanks to my parents) and the in-between nights of hosting by my brother and his wife, and of course the blessing (and the push to get out and do something) from my husband, none of this would even get off the ground!

So, what do I want to accomplish while away and via this blog:
1. Ideally, I'd like to have a draft of the book - however rough - completed
2. If possible, it would be great to even edit some of the chapters.
3. To journal, via this blog, the writing process and experiment with practices, what works, what doesn't and generally contemplate where and how inspiration can be found, through writing exercises, meditation, and art.

I hope this journey is both interesting and fulfilling in all ways possible!